Friday, April 29, 2011

Friend Friday...

Welcome to this week's edition of Friend Fridays, sponsored by ModlyChic.

1. Do you keep some kind of fitness routine? Why?

I grew up as a dancer. I basically lived in the dance studio -- hours a day, days a week. I never consciously thought of it as working out, though I know it was. I danced all the way through high school.
When I went to college, I stopped really dancing. Sure, I was still part of a dance club, but it wasn't nearly the same level. And I did a lot of trekking across campus, so I was still pretty fit in college too.
Since college, I have belong to various gyms for various amounts of time. I have had a personal trainer. I have also put on 50+ pounds, lost all my flexibility, and am now winded just walking up a flight of stairs.
I need to get back into a serious fitness routine and stick with it. Not only for the way I look (though, I finally admit, that really is my main motivation), but also for my health in general. When I have kids, I don't want to be the mom who sits on the sidelines.

2. Has working out, maybe training for a marathon or something of that nature, helped with your own perception of body image?

When I was a dancer, I was thin and solid muscle. I never really thought much about my body image. I could buy clothes without trying them on because I knew how they would fit my body.
Nowadays, my body image is frighteningly low. Sure, I have days where I love how I look. But even on those days, I wish I were thinner. As much as I want other gals to love and accept themselves for who they are, I have a problem doing so myself.
So I can only imagine that when I get myself back on an exercise regimen, I will feel better about my body.

3. When you are hitting the gym or just going out for a long walk what do you wear? Is it about functionality or fashion?

I am 99% about function when I'm getting sweaty. Sure, I might wear a cute tshirt or a colorful bandana, but even those items are more about function. I used to have a few cute workout tops, but they don't fit anymore, and frankly, I was always more comfortable in a tshirt anyway.

4. Do you feel there is a cultural perception of what you ‘should’ be doing for your own physical fitness?

Of course. As a plus-sized gal, people expect that I should want to be thin, and that I should be eating healthier and working out to achieve that goal. (The fact that I *do* want to be thin doesn't justify society's pressure that I want those things.) I feel pressure from my family and from my husband. As much as they tell me that they love me regardless, I know they want me to be healthier. Only in my own mind, I equate healthier with thinner. So when they talk about me working out, I hear "You should be thinner." It's a vicious cycle.

5. Dream big… what would be your ultimate fitness goal.

If I were to take up tomorrow the same size that I was in high school or college, I think I'd crap myself. But really, to be that size isn't my goal -- I know that's just not realistic (and possibly, not even healthy).
I would love to lose somewhere in the realm of 50 pounds. I would love to be more physically active on a more regular basis -- to play soccer or tennis with my husband. To go swimming (and more than just get in the water and float). To pick up dancing again. I want to not be out of breath from doing the most basic things.
Basically, I want to be active without thinking of it as being active. I want to love my body without even realizing it -- the same way I used to when I was younger.


  1. Aww good luck on your goal. Do it to be healthy because you are beautiful! I used to do a lot of dancing when I was younger... it's a great exercise.

  2. Totally know what you mean - the minute I started my office job after uni the pounds started to pile on. I'd never really had to worry about that before as my lifestyle had been sufficiently active but sitting at a desk all day every day is not so great. Just starting to take my fitness seriously and hoping to incorporate more into my schedule. Good luck with your goals :)

  3. @Kimberlee: thankyou lady. you are too sweet!

    @Shopgirl: that slow outward-spreading of the rear end that you develop from months/years sitting at a desk -- i refer to it as "office ass." i dont know quite when mine turned into one, but its there! eep!

  4. I completely relate to the post! The only difference is that I didn't really get into "exercise" until college. But real life makes fitness a lot more difficult (between family and work, it's hard to find the time/energy/motivation).

    Being part of the "fashion community," there's definitely more pressure. But for me, it's more about just putting on clothes without having to try so hard. We have similar fitness/weight loss goals! We should motivate each other. :)

    Have a great weekend!

  5. @Amanda: thanks for visiting! energy is the real kicker for me. i get up early in the morning and commute an hour to work to sit behind a desk all day. then i commute an hour home, rush to make dinner for my husband and me (which sometimes is faster than it is healthy). then i just want to "rest" -- which often turns into doing nothing all night + neglecting both fitness and chores. its finding that second wind that i need!